Amy’s Journal

haih…why my mom just have to pin point at me saying that im the one causing my brother not to go to sleep n making him still playing computer game at this hour on a schooling night. btw my bro is form 6 ordy eh.. n still need my mom to scold him.. everyone knows how furious my mom is. like a tiger.. or even worst… a dragon. n as a result, im the one being blame. im use to that all ordy but sometimes it just breaks my heart. she was like saying, "if u weren’t home, all this thing wont happen". she is saying that we are noisy la this n that la. i was talking to my sister calling from singapore n my brother was saying.."cant u talk softer?"–> he’s speaking way louder than me though… that’s makes my mom wakes up from her sleep n start scolding me while im on the phone wit my sis… i haven’t talk to her for ages eh… n my sister didnt find that my voice is too loud to wake her up.

for goodness sake, im staying in a double storey detached house eh… is the vibration from my voice or the amplitude and the frequency is that high???????? now i really wanna go back to miri ordy.. :(..

indeed no one can deny that ther’s no place like home. i’ve been home for three days two night ordy n guess wat..  both two nights i have big makan. 1st makan is at anytha’s house, celebrating closing of gawai n last night, with "jie fu"..eat again… nevertheless, good food whereby i rarely have the chance to taste it in miri. sayang i didnt bring my camera. i shud u know, so that i can blog about the food…last night’s menu..

1. kangkung fried with garlic n red wine
2. fried rice
3. king lobster - super nice, a bit spicy
4. sea cucumber soup
5. another vege…i duno wat’s the name but "jie fu" take it from his garden
6. fried chicken
7. last but not least 1 kg of ikan bawal putih… it’s really big!!.. tasty… yummy… my fav dish.. muahahaha

but then, last nite…dun really have big appetite though.. duno y… maybe really mauk diet ordy… haha.. hopefully jadi lah..

k, i’ll blog more soon… chiao

i thought i was only wanna enjoy the complimetary drink in premier hotel (sibu) while enjoying the wifi connection. n i never thought that i end up in a lounge..help!! the music loud… so eeky.. disastrous sound… but the vocal still ok ok la…
actually right now having holiday. since my dad having course here so my mom just join him n pick me up from the airport this morning..n we went shopping. n i only slept for three hours..quite sleepy now actually..
u may realise that my story line jump here n ther cuz im not enjoying the environment now.. not a inspirational place for me to blog i guess…. till next time.. bye!!

there’s this one normal night wher…

im blessed by the significant view from my window, when im about to sleep  n i switch of the lights n i lie down on my green covered-sheet bed. i was about to close my eyes. there was this light shining at me. at first i thought it was the street lights.. but then, it feels so different. the light so tender, not too bright not too dim for a dark cozy night like this.

so i my eyes wondered n saw the moon right straight up in the sky. it;s like sleeping out door. the moonlight just shine through my window and landed on my face. i felt so fascinated by the beauty of the view that night. just staring at it (im not missing anyone here…) ahh.. another BEAUTY of God’s creation.

i felt like im having facial treatment with the moonlight.. so nice.. so peaceful.. I LOVE MY ROOM.. hehe..

and ther;s this one night i travelled back from my friends house.. n i decided to use another route in piasau camp side.. i drive pass the lutong beach.. so dark n ther’s no street light. i was alone in the car.. and ther.. i saw the moon again.. prefect view i ever saw.. haih.. somehow recently im excited about moonlight.. which exist since the existance in the world..and as long as im here on earth for 20 yrs.. it just caught my attention lately..wow..

Im consistent in…
checking my mails,
waking up brushing my teeth,
download friends, or maybe movies
checking friendster,
doing what i like.. basically

im not consistent in…
reading my bible,
writing my blogs,
keep up my with personal journal
tidy up my room, house, toilet
my feelings towards people

well, i do realise that i shud rearrange my priority . again it’s true that i wanna put God first, then, i should read His word daily. today our bible study group talks about scripture application. it;s not something that i don;t know, but it is a good reminder where i should read my bible and let my life change through reading Bible. yeah… just a closer walk with Jesus, our theme for VCF next semester..

consistency in my personal stuffs such as writing my journals and blogs.. n seems tat tons of work is burrying me. but sometimes is also about my lazyness too… this will be my prayer…

"O Lord, do help me in prioritize things in my life. help me to put u first n find the joy in knowing You better through Your word. and also knowing wat is important. i know this is a simple prayer but Lord, i believe You will pulll me through in this situation. In Jesus Most precious name, AMEN!"

somehow this word just pop into my mind thinking… in wat case does it consider as covet. well, 1st of well, covet means desiring something tat doesnt belong to u.  even in one of the 10 commandments, God says, "thou shall not covet". even such feeling God doesnt allow wat more to say stealling.

for me.. hmm.. lots of thing went to my mind last night, cant really sleep cuz this word keep on pounding me. will it be consider covetous when u actually like someone, but then, that someone ordy with other ppl. should tat "covetous feeling" stop straight away? will it b sin? well, it’s not wrong to be infactuated with someone…

will it b covet when u are admiring someone’s experience. sometimes i would think that, boy, how i wish u could went thru tat..

oh ya…. another one.. will it b covet, tat when u see someone having a luxorious thing.e.g. sophisticated hp.. u want it so much till u buy one for urself.. yeah, u bought the handphone urself but the feeling of wanting it at the 1st place.. does it consider covet?

most probably, it may b a no answer for those kinda situation… it’s just a glance thru, no big deal, n ppl are facing tat everyday but remember… watch out…well.. it depends i believe. to conclude, i myself still strugglin hard not to have that feeling n just be thankful for what God has given me. He has been so good to me.. thank you even for dying on the cross.. feeling of covetous, im still strugglin with.